Some time ago I was very inspired. Not a long time ago, not even 6 months ago, but I had a zest for beauty and glamour. I still do, but it has regretably subdued a bit.
You see, a few months ago, there was a position available at one of the most glamorous and beautiful boutiques in my town. The clothing store is replete with rosy pinks, sexy blacks, reds, leopards, peaches. The fabrics are the most beautiful satins and silks covered in the most gorgeous prints any girl would fall inlove with. It was a prestigious boutique, one which I had admired for many years.
One day, I decided to hand in my resume. Why not? I needed a new job where I could make more money and not to mention, imagine the discounts! So, I shimmied into the shop and handed in my resume. I pushed and pushed for the position and, lo and behold, the manager there loved me and gave me a trial!
I woke up extra early on trial day in order to look my best and most glamorous, in case the owner of the store came in. I even put on my Secrets in Lace by Dita Von Teese stockings, which I usually saved for outings.
Anyway, the owner did come in and I introduced myself. She was not at all as glamorous and I envisioned and was quite rude. She looked at my legs and said “Are you wearing stockings?”
I looked down. I could see why she was complementing me. They were really gorgeous!
“Yes!” I smiled.
“Well next time wear black stockings, not old granny ones like the ones you’re wearing.”
So began my descent into un-inspiration. All the beautiful clothes I had admired for so long began to be unexiting to me because of all the negative connotations that came along with them. All the beautiful women who shopped there were snarky and rude. Needless to say, it didn’t take me long to leave the job after eduring lots of abuse.
Before this experience, I was inlove with glamour. I was modelling and doing makeup jobs, I was even offered to star as a burlesque performer! But sadly, the experience I had working at that place has left me empty of any positive feeling towards it all. I had a crazy, beautiful way of looking at the world.
And I really want it back.